I really don't even know where to begin. Words just are not enough for what I'm feeling right now. I guess I'll start with my bottom. I knew when I was pregnant with twins, had a 2 year old, no job, and was loosing my house because my at the time husband decided not to pay any of the bills because he'd rather pay a divorce lawyer that that was my rock bottom. I had nothing. Yet I had everything. If you don't believe in God my post is going to sound crazy but I have always been a Christ follower although during my marriage I really lost my way, when all that turmoil was going on and I had no idea where I was going to live or if I was going to get to keep custody of my children, couldn't get a job because of my pregnancy and couldn't afford a lawyer due to lack of a job I really thought I was going to loose everything. One of my ex brother in laws said something, I think he was just trying to be stupid but it didn't work out for him. When I was trying to talk to my husband who refused to talk to me he said "Are you scared?" and I said yeah, and he said "Go to church" I guess it was some kind of joke from a song or something but that's exactly what I did. I went back to church. And I prayed. And I was not afraid. Sure I lost my house because my first lawyer was a looser who took the money I had used a credit card to get him with and did nothing including never even showing up for court but it turned out that was a blessing because it was enough for me to report them to the ACLU or something I forgot their letters but at least my really bad lawyer who never did anything he promised so I lost my house had to do some work for that 5000 I gave him to defend his whole not doing anything for my case. I think they wrote about 60 pages of lies to try and cover up the terrible job they did. I just hope that they get enough complaints on them to put them out of business because they are really taking advantage of people who really need help. So I had to fire him and had no lawyer.
I prayed. I looked into doing it myself. And then a miracle happened. 3 days later, just like how long it took Christ to come back from the grave I got a message on facebook on Thanksgiving no less from a lawyer who took my case for much much less than the used car salesman lawyer did and bonus- it was someone I knew so I could trust that they would do right by me. I got primary custody of the kids. And that is all that matters, really.
That's me. I had nothing else to do- no other options but to take that leap of faith and he took care of me. There's been crutches and set backs and hurdles along the way but my latest hurdle got me here, and here is a pretty awesome place to be. All this time I was finding myself, but I didn't know I was lost. I truly didn't know how very lost I had become. He called me back. I don't know why, I certainly don't deserve it but he gave me another chance. And he gave me a gift. So many gifts really that I can't even list them all. The best thing about hitting rock bottom is there is no where to go but up. Every day I'm getting up, and I'm getting closer, and that is an awesome feeling.
And now by a series of twists and turns the very first dress I've ever made with crochet or otherwise got featured in a bridal mag on the East coast. I didn't believe in myself like at all, I didn't think I could make a dress so it really blew me away when people were saying it could pass for a wedding dress because that's like the be all end all of dresses but yeah- it looks pretty good in this
feature. My dress is the one in the summer photo's. It took me about 2 months to make it and some achy hands but to create it's just my thing, its a gift that God gave me to do good works. I tried to be other things, it never really worked out. Got fired from a couple of jobs, quit a few more so why not create pretty things and hope and have some faith that things will all work out. You'll never know if you don't try right? Anyways thanks for stopping by . ..
