This isn't happening.

She doesn't have terminal cancer.  She's not going anywhere.  It's not her turn yet.  She's a freaking tulip!  Too many people need her and depend on her.  She can't go anywhere.  This isn't happening.  No.  Nope.  It can't be real.  Not yet.  I'm not ready yet.  They say months, maybe years they don't know.  They don't know anything   Stupid doctors.  Doctors should know things.  It's their job to know things.  So if the doctors don't know anything than how do they know the cancer is in her bones?  Nope.  This isn't happening.  I can't.